Why I'm mad!If you know me and talk to me and see how my grandmother is you would understand.
I know I talk back to her. And I know damn fucking well that I'm not the best child but she gets to me. It is so hard not to let her get me. I try really fucking hard. My grandmother is just so fucking deep. She takes her fucking problems out on me to long.
I really can't take it. When she yells at me and nipicks at everything I do "wrong" in her eyes I usaslly walk away. Don't tell her how I feel. How much she hurts me calling me "fat lazy dumb ass" and how she tells me I take right after my mother. (Mother been in out of prison since I was 5). Nothing perfect, I know that. I know I don't have it that bad. I've heard worse. It's to my breaking point. I can't hold everything in. I use to be a closed off person and act like stuff never bugged me. I "bottled it up" and stuff. I can't do that. I'm so streessed out.
My grandmother is a fucking addicted with Pain Killers. If she's not high off them she nobody happy. My mother a fucking hooker and in that stupid drug circle thing whatever you want to call it. And I'm always stuck between it. My mother betrayed my family (espacially my grandmother and me) many times. And Who is her offspring? And has to deal with grandmother when SHE does bad? Me.
She makes me feel like shit. I don't do much. I talk back. I'm not out doing drugs or drinking having sex am I? but she always makes me feel like a low life peice of shit. And I never do anything about what she says. IF I cry about it...I'm a baby. I'm sorry her words get me like that and the only emotion I feel is sadness and deppression. I'm saying in my grandmother eyes I feel like a failure, worthless, useless, pathetic, no meaning, pile sack of crap.
So, why the sudden I feel like this is because I went to hang out with my mother over the weekend and my younger sister. I had a fun time like I always do with my mom. I went ther at like 6 pm on saturday and my grandmother wanted me home at 11am on sunday. Now thats not long. She only wanted me home because she hates seeing my happy with my mom. I didn't come home on time. But mind you she has work at night and she sleeps all day. So like if I was here it wouldn't make any difference if I wasn't. So I stayed at my mothers and called my gram asked her when she wanted me home. She said she didn't care... Well that means don't come home. Well my mother called her making sure if the house would open. My grandmother made a big long bitching thing to my mother and my mom hung up on her. So which she turned my phone off becasue my mother hung up on her and didn't answer when she called back. Thats my punishment and if you have a cell phone and you know its close to you. Well that my connection to people. What ever.
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Noura: Now sit on my lap, deary
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Noura: Did you just says yeah or yay?
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Noura: Now sit on my lap, deary
Marie: Omg yay!
Noura: Did you just says yeah or yay?
Marie: No yay like "I'm happy"
Christina: But your not happy
Marie: Well let's pretend then.
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